To say that I have had enough is an understatement. Between last night and this morning I became completely aware that I have been a push over. A people pleaser if you will. Well, take this as a warning, you are all being put on notice.
I bust my butt day in and day out. I go to work everyday. Now, it may not be back breaking, or hands on, but I utilize the talents that God has given me to the best of what I am able to do. And that's Monday through Friday 8am-5pm. Oh, not to mention that every day I wake up at 6am to make sure that my high school son wakes up in plenty of time to be up and get to the bus stop on time. Oh, not to mention that I attempt to pick out my daughter's clothes so that my wife can get them down to the bus on time. Oh, not to mention that it takes me 45 minutes to get to work, so I have to leave my house early, losing time to spend with my children before and after work.
Then after work, I volunteer, let me repeat that, I volunteer to coach my son's knothole team. So, I spend time away from my family doing that. He plays almost three times a week and let's not forget the occassional practice. I work hard at making sure that all the kids play, that they play where their strengths best suit them. Oh, and let me tell you, I hear the whispers behind me. I hear the questioning, the doubts. Let me just say, I didn't see you stepping up to volunteer to lead this team! Am I going to make the right decisions all the time, nope. But, I am doing the best that I can. You have a problem, be an adult, bring it to my attention.
When I am not volunteering I am at home working in my yard. Trying to make it perfect so that we can enjoy our little piece of paradise. So what? Right? Well, let's see, over the last two years, I have moved over six tons of rock. Created retaining walls. Created flower beds, which means I have dug countless holes for all the flowers. I have created a raised box garden so we can save money and live off of what we grow. I have built a chicken coop and run. Oh, and it's no where near complete yet. So, I will put more time into that.
When I am not working in the yard, I am trying to spend time with my immediate family.
So, that's some of my time spent in case you were wondering. I try to fit my family and friends in there when I can. Relaxation comes in moments, when we are trying to get the girls to settle and fall asleep.
All I can say at this point is I am doing the best that I can. And like I said earlier, don't expect the push over guy anymore. I served my country, I've broke my back for my community and my family. I will not be taken advantage of anymore.
That is all.
