The Gap. There has been a gap, a void if you will for the last several years. It started out small, but recently has grown into the freakin Grand Canyon. I know exactly what's causing it, but I don't know if I am ready to fill the gap right now or not.
There are many things that would have to happen in order for me to plug the hole. Oh, I bet you are wondering what exactly caused the gap aren't you? I don't know if I am quite ready to share that or not. I can tell you that the biggest thing that I believe created the rift was my lack of reliance on God. I say lack, what I really mean is my non-existent communication with Him.
It's pure laziness you know. It's because I'm fat. I know it's hard to believe...but I am, I'm fat...it's no one's fault, it just happened. Ha. Ha.Right, anyway, moving on. I have become lazy, in many things in my life. Taking care of myself has been the biggest problem. There has been no work, mentally, physically, or spiritually for quite some time.
My faith has dwindled, my work ethic is crap, and my want to further my education, well, has flushed. You know what I mean. The purpose of this blog is to help me come to the realization, that I have failed. But behind every failed battle, comes a new strategy and another attempt to tear down the walls of the enemy.
So, I am making a stand right now. I am making a commitment to my friends and my family, but more importantly myself.
1. Study and commune with God
2. Eat right
3. Love my family with all of my heart and show them everyday!
4. Read at least one book a month
5. Go back to school.

God help me, I will become a better man!